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How many times
and how many ways
can I say the same things?
I miss you
I want you
I hope you\u2019re okay
The words have lost all meaning
And yet words are all I have
Cliches and platitudes
and pearls of wisdom I don\u2019t even follow myself
Somehow some part of me
still believes that some magic combination
of all these words and phrases
will fix things between us
Just keep doing it over and over
So I guess you could call me crazy
by that old apocryphal quote
\u2026but try telling my heart that
as it worries and scrambles
trying to make sense of it all
and make right something that can never be
So here I am
saying it all again
I miss you
I love you
I want to be a part of your life somehow
in whatever way I fit
(which is probably not at all by now)
But I\u2019ll keep trying
and digging a deeper hole<\/p>\n<\/body>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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