{"id":1673,"date":"2020-06-19T17:52:49","date_gmt":"2020-06-20T00:52:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.scottneelan.com\/?p=1673"},"modified":"2020-06-22T08:21:03","modified_gmt":"2020-06-22T15:21:03","slug":"looking-back","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.scottneelan.com\/index.php\/2020\/06\/19\/looking-back\/","title":{"rendered":"Looking Back"},"content":{"rendered":"<body>\n<p>It\u2019s sad and kinda depressing looking back<br>To think you found all of these words disturbing<br>Have you never really been cared about?<br>Have you never really loved?<br>Have you never felt something so strongly that you couldn\u2019t hold in in? <br>Is it really so disturbing to think I might\u2019ve fell for you?<br>A shame, then, in a world where true feelings are so rare<br>That you could so easily throw away someone that gave a damn<br>That did no harm and caused no trouble and only wanted to help<br>And now you sit there hiding behind a digital wall<br>Wrapped up in some weird little world<br>And all I want to do is break you out<br>But you have to want to leave it<br>So fuck it, lock yourself away<br>Toss me aside for all I care<br>And I\u2019ll just walk away and let you suffer<\/p>\n<\/body>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It\u2019s sad and kinda depressing looking backTo think you found all of these words disturbingHave you never really been cared about?Have you never really loved?Have you never felt something so strongly that you couldn\u2019t hold in in? 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