You\u2019re still the first I think of<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When I experience something<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That I just have to share<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The one I wish I could talk to<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The smiling face I look for<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When reaching for that lifeline<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And it\u2019s so sad and stupid<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I never meant that much to you<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We were never anything<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But you were the closest<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019d had to a best friend<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In what felt like forever<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I put too much on you<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I understand that now<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Too much of my friendship<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Too much of my mental state<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Too much of myself<\/p>\n\n\n\n
How I wish I could take that back<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And never fall in love with you<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Never open myself up to fall<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I miss your presence still<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And I fear I always will<\/p>\n<\/body>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"