{"id":3424,"date":"2025-08-29T13:27:26","date_gmt":"2025-08-29T20:27:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.scottneelan.com\/index.php\/2025\/08\/29\/this-isnt-how-i-wanted-it-to-end\/"},"modified":"2025-08-29T13:27:26","modified_gmt":"2025-08-29T20:27:26","slug":"this-isnt-how-i-wanted-it-to-end","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.scottneelan.com\/index.php\/2025\/08\/29\/this-isnt-how-i-wanted-it-to-end\/","title":{"rendered":"This Isn&#8217;t How I Wanted It To End"},"content":{"rendered":"<body>\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cThis isn\u2019t how I wanted it to end\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">has to be one of the dumbest phrases<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">in all of human history<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">We generally don\u2019t start things<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">thinking they\u2019re going to end<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">and usually if we do<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">the journey getting there is the point<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">not where it all ends up<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Books and movies, songs and tales,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">those are meant to wrap up somewhete<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">but no one lives their life expecting<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">to know when it\u2019s all over<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">or how it comes<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">or how each point and period<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">will twist and turn its way toward<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">the inevitable conclusion<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Of course this isn\u2019t how you\u2019d thought it\u2019d go<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">but it\u2019s where your road<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">and your choices<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">have brought you on your merry way<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">so deal with that and learn for next time<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">That\u2019s all you can do, really<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Don\u2019t bemoan how it\u2019s over<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">it\u2019s just a waste of time\u2026<\/p>\n<\/body>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u201cThis isn\u2019t how I wanted it to end\u201d has to be one of the dumbest phrases in all of human history We generally don\u2019t start things thinking they\u2019re going to end and usually if we do the journey getting there &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.scottneelan.com\/index.php\/2025\/08\/29\/this-isnt-how-i-wanted-it-to-end\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3424","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-writing"],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v27.8 - 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