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Oh, sweet torture
I wallow in the pain
watching you
wishing I could give you everything
knowing I\u2019ll never be the one
Ah, that\u2019s the way
twist the knife in my own heart
the wound isn\u2019t quite deep enough
I can still feel
I close my eyes
and see your smile
and find myself wishing
that it was me you were smiling for
Tell me again
how much you care for him
I haven\u2019t felt this burn in far too long
Bathe me
in the light that shines from your eyes
when you think of him
so that it may burn its way
into my soul.<\/p>\n<\/body>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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