So where are you now
that you’ve gone and done exactly what you feared
and pushed away the best thing in your life?
Are you happy?
Are you satisfied?
You had something precious in your grasp
and threw it away
by trying too hard
by forcing her hand
by not being able to keep your big mouth shut
It didn’t just slip away
This was a full-force long bomb toss
This was a Hail Mary throw that fell far, far away
…like you knew it would
didn’t you?
You self-sabotaging fuck
This is what you wanted, isn’t it?
To wallow in the guilt,
misery and pain
To use it like a shield
to wear it like a crown of thorns
another reason to hide away from everything
Well, you got it
I’m done
I’ll crawl back in the hole you dug
and surround myself with your shit
because out here is a cold and lonely place
without her
