Just the sight of you
Is all I need
To make my day
How sickeningly sweet is that?
But it’s true
Just being near you
Brightens everything
You make the good days great
And the bad ones bearable
Just by your mere presence
I can only hope
To never lose that blessing

Is this what you wanted?
Because it’s eating me up inside
All I want to do is run to you
And yet I’m running away
Hiding from you like a scared child
I don’t know what I’m doing anymore
I don’t know why we pulled away
I don’t even know if you care at all
But I do
And I have to find out
I have to learn
But the silence deafens
And the isolation is choking me
And yet there’s nothing I can do
But wait it out…

I miss you
a little more each day
Though you’re not gone
You might as well be
A million miles away
For the distance you created
I can’t begin to understand
Why cast aside
Something full of possibility
Something rare
Something precious
I guess that’s what I get
For thinking we were friends
For buying into something
I hadn’t had in years
A true closeness
Of like-minded souls
Sharing
Caring
Understanding
And a implied promise
Of mutual support
I suppose it doesn’t matter now
What I thought I had found
For now there’s nothing there
Of the comfort I once had
Just an ever-growing distance
That I can’t reach across

Can I put this book down now?
I already know how it ends
The hero sucks
He never gets the girl
There is no happy ending
Just a setup for a sequel
That tells the same story
With different names
In different places
But in the same three acts
With no real conclusion
Just plodding ever onward
Without so much as a point
There’s no hidden meaning
There’s no greater message
Just a guy
And a girl
Never meant to be together
No matter how right it seems

I’ve tried so hard
To write the perfect expression
Of what I see when I look at you
And what I feel when I think of you
But I can’t
The words are there
Just beyond my reach
It should be so easy
Just to stretch out my fingers
And pull them down
Line them up and let them go
But I struggle
It’s never been like this before
I’ve never felt such a connection
There’s never been such a sense of right
Of where I belong
Of meeting someone for the first time
And yet our souls feel like old friends
And I just can’t let that slip away
No matter the circumstances
So here I am
Fighting
Trying to capture this spark
In a bottle barely big enough
With hands shaking
And eyes wide shut
I don’t know what I’m doing
But that can’t stop me now
(it never has before)
I’m too close
To something deeper
And more powerful
That I’ve ever known before
And if I could only get those words
To come down from their perch
To flow like they should
Then maybe their truth
Would set us both free

The pain is obvious
And all I want to do is reach out
But I can’t
Because you asked me not to
Because I want there to be a chance
Because I refuse to blow it now
But there you are
Hurting
And I want so bad
To take you in my arms
To push the pain away
Any way I can
It eats away at me
To see you as you are right now
And it’s taking everything in me
Not to make a move
That I’ll surely regret
I hope you know I’m here
Any time you need
Anything at all
I’ll be there

I’m stuck in my own head again
Trying to find meaning
where there is none
Looking for answers to questions
better left unasked
but that’s not me
I can’t leave well enough alone
not when there’s something there
just out of reach
I’ll keep following breadcrumbs
and running the numbers
endlessly, hopelessly
until the end of time
as long as there’s a chance
to find the way
and slowly lose myself
to the madness of the hunt
likely to end up empty-handed
all the worse for wear

After being so close so long
This distance between us
Is a painful reminder
Of what could have been
Had we met at a better time
Or if I had been smart enough
To not push my luck
Hell, I don’t know
Maybe with time
We’ll bridge this divide
But standing here now
Looking at the abyss
It feels like forever ago
Lost and forgotten
Missed only by me

You’ve been standing at the edge
for far too long now
don’t look,
don’t think,
just jump,
I’m here
You know I’ll catch you
No need to look back
you don’t have to have a plan
Don’t wait
Just go
Together we can get there
You can have what you desire
You can get what you deserve
Just take that leap of faith
into my arms
we’ll find it,
I know,
you and I

Wanting you is hardest
in the quiet moments
when my thoughts
find their way to you
and you alone
and I can’t help wishing
that by some miracle
you’d feel the same
I wonder where you are
what you’re doing
how you’re feeling
hoping that you’re happy
and yet if only there were
something missing
that I could provide…