Someday I’ll make you smile again
Even if I die trying
And that smile, oh that smile
It will stick around
It will reach your eyes
It will be the biggest smile in recorded human history
I’ll make sure of it
That smile will light up the world
That smile will bring airplanes in for landing
That smile will guide ships through the fog
That smile will be visible from the ISS
And if I actually do die trying
That smile will be enough to bring me back to life

If I go down
I go down swinging
No matter what it takes
It’s too perfect
You’re too perfect
To let slip away
Without doing all in my power
To win you over
I may be down
But I’m not out
Not yet
I’ll take the blows
And come back for more
Just waiting for an opening

So where are you now
that you’ve gone and done exactly what you feared
and pushed away the best thing in your life?
Are you happy?
Are you satisfied?
You had something precious in your grasp
and threw it away
by trying too hard
by forcing her hand
by not being able to keep your big mouth shut
It didn’t just slip away
This was a full-force long bomb toss
This was a Hail Mary throw that fell far, far away
…like you knew it would
didn’t you?
You self-sabotaging fuck
This is what you wanted, isn’t it?
To wallow in the guilt,
misery and pain
To use it like a shield
to wear it like a crown of thorns
another reason to hide away from everything
Well, you got it
I’m done
I’ll crawl back in the hole you dug
and surround myself with your shit
because out here is a cold and lonely place
without her