Maybe when I stop caring
It’ll be less awkward
But what are the odds of that
When I’ve never felt for anyone
As strongly as I feel for you
I was ready to settle for next to nothing
How sad is that, really?
I had committed myself to waiting
And seeing if someday, maybe
I could have more
How stupid could I be?
How desperate?
How foolish?
And now there’s nothing
But awkward moments
And reflections of fantasies
And this sinking feeling in my gut
When I look at you
And think of where we were
And where I am now
I miss the feeling of importance
Of mattering to someone
That seemed to understand
The screwed up things inside my head
I’ve lost so much
For wanting more
And maybe I deserve this awkward pain
But you don’t
And most of all I’ll never forgive myself
For putting you through this same awkward pain
And so here we are
And what am I to do
But keep on going
Knowing just how much I’ve broken
And how much hurt I’ve caused
Unable to give up
Struggling to move on