I’ve tried so hard so long
to be a bigger man and better person
Than I think I have what it takes to be
I just can’t do it anymore
My shoulders are breaking under the strain
My head’s a jumbled mess
And my heart still hasn’t gotten it together
And while I keep up the facade
Inside my world is crumbling
And I’m so afraid that everyone will see
The walking disaster I barely keep inside
I don’t want to break down
I can’t afford to fail, can’t let myself stumble
But I’m not sure how long I can keep moving
When nothing goes as planned
And I’m just so lost and confused
That even if I knew which way was up
I’m not sure I could go in the right direction
But there’s too much at stake
The responsibility I carry too great
To let it all go
So I keep up the struggle
On up that same hill
Waiting for the rock to fall back down
And part of me wishing it would crush me
