Give it time, they said
Give it time and everything will work out
But time only drew it further away
Time only led to a firmer ending
Time only brought me more pain
Little heartaches
One after another
And now there’s nothing to wait for
Time left me hollow and btoken
Time took it all away
And I’m empty again
Because I listened
I gave it time
And time gave me nothing
But nothing
And that’s how it ends
No bang, not even a whimper
Just a silent fade from memory
Though I’m not surprised
it still strikes at the very heart of me
that there’ll never be a moment
where I might find peace in knowing you
The world is just a little out of focus
Nothing’s where it’s supposed to be
Theres just a feeling of wrong
Emanating from everywhere
It’s all just so fuzzy
So disconnected
So wrong in ways I can’t express
And just can’t shake away
We find ourselves wishing for the good old days
But those days were only better because back then we had hope
Hope for the future and the potential for improvement
But as we get closer to that future it never gets better
It never actually changes at all
We just keep going, following the path we’ve laid
Right off the cliff and into the abyss
I want to scream
I want to cry
I want to make you feel
Every last bit of emotion
You brought upon me
With your two little words
But I can’t
Because you don’t seem to care
About anyone or anything
At least as far as I can see
But getting your last digs in
You hurt me
You hurt me more than anyone else
You hurt me for no good reason
You hurt me by striking
At the only thing I have left
You kicked me while I was down
And kicked and kicked
Until I almost couldn’t get back up
And here I lie
Waiting for the day
That karma will reflect upon you
And you’ll know just how I felt
To see you insult me
When you didn’t have to
After I’ve done nothing
But try to work through
My own feelings and emotions
Without bothering you
You hurt me
Worse than anyone else ever has
Worse than I myself could do
And I wish I had the strength
To strike back
To make you feel the same
But no
You’ll get away with it
Safe in your little world
While I suffer
Maybe I’ve been wrong the whole time
Trying to find the root of the problem
All this analysis and self-blame
And all along the issue was her
To see her be so callous, so cruel
Seems so out of character
I guess I built an image in my head
And never really saw her true colors through it
To watch her take glee in my failing
The careless shot at my heart and soul
Was the closest I’ve come to a final solution
This is how a friendship dies, I suppose
In faceless mocking and bloody tears
A good, solid blow to what matters most
And I give up completely
I’d always hoped for reconciliation
Some peaceful resolve to this cold war
But if she can be so clueless and careless
She can have her isolation
I’m far too good at hurting nyself
To have someone near that does the same
You’ve built your little bubble
Pulled your cover tight
To block out the outside world
But now you’ve grown restless
You’ve started to lash out
Your misery is showing, love
You wield it like a shield
Don’t worry, little girl
You’ll find no comfort here
I tried to help you how I could
You stabbed me in the back instead
And now you lie in the bed you made
And I’ll move on to spite you