Let this poor boy in out of the rain

Make a place beside your fire

Where he can sit forever

And he will never leave your side

Watch over him now when he needs it

And he’ll return the favor

A million times over if he must

Give him something to fight for

And he will fight as long as it takes

To ensure the battle is over

Build him a place to come home to

And he’ll never leave it

It will stand a testament

To his dedication to the one that gave him hope

Somewhere beneath the fantasy

I need to find a way

To forget it all and let it stay

In the foolish, forgotten past

The dreams are empty

And the wandering thoughta

Lead me in directions I’d never dare

There’s nothing for me down those roads

But heartache and insanity

Show me the right way

May those burdens fall

Off my shoulders and into the void

It’s time to find the life I’m supposed to lead

And not worry about the one I never lived

The one that just won’t be

Find what’s meant to

Don’t

Don’t act like nothing’s changed

You can’t sweep it under the rug

I know it’s been awhile

But surely you don’t think

I’ve forgotten what you did

Things are different

Time has passed

But I won’t let you back in

Not again

I trusted you

I won’t trust again

Not so easily

And not you

Help me find the strength to stand
’cause I can’t do it on my own
I’ve been struggling for far too long
and there’s just no end in sight
They say no man’s an island
but I tried to find my way
and now I’m sinking deep
lost in unending waves
I’ve always tried to rise above
but I think I’m going under
and I just need a little hand
to pull me back to shore
It feels like failure
To always be the helper
that suddenly needs his own rescue
from the collapse of his emotions
But I’ve made mistakes
and now they come to haunt me
and I just can’t shut the voices out
as they shout my failings
Please won’t someone break the noise
help me back to silence
Just lift me that I may find my feet
and walk back to my place

Don’t get too close

I’ll burn you, too

It’ll all be wasted time

There’s nothing here

Worth all the pain

That’ll come when you leave

Someday maybe

I’ll be someone worthy

Of knowing and trusting

But I guess I’m not there

I’m just dead weight

Nothing to see here

Just move along

And let me wallow

Here at rock bottom

How do I heal

When the broken part

Is so fundamental

To who and what I am?

Was I really that bad?

Did I deserve this?

To break so completely

Right to the core?

She took away

The last piece of me

That I actually liked

She took my self-worth

And my self-respect

And any hope I had

Of believing in myself

She crushed me

And I’ll never understand

Why and how it happened

Or why I still care

I’ll never get back

What she took away

That small little hole

She left in my soul

That still bleeds

No matter the cause

No matter the fault

I’m a bad judge of character

The problem is knowing

Whose character was lacking

I’m not sure it mattera

When I’m the only one still hurt

Face it, boy, you’ll never have it

Never find what you lost again

She was something extra special

And you proved too much for her

You went and made a fool of yourself

Opened yourself up too far

Your soul just spilled out everywhere

Scared her clean away

Hell, you’re still gathering up the mess

After all this time

What did you expect to happen?

All your pointless big ideas

Played too close and played too cool

Until you couldn’t hold it back

What good did it do to fight

To make a spot in her life for you

When the place you couldn’t let go of

Was just so small and insignificant

That she could walk away

Without a word or second glance?

You fooled yourself to think you mattered

And still you pay the price

So get it back together, boy

No one wants to see your mess

I’m just looking for whatever

Makes all of this worth it

All the effort and the pain

The struggle and the fighting

There has to be a reason

To make the suffering make sense

Someone or something is waiting

The pot of gold, the dangling carrot

The light at the end of the tunnel

And all those other clichéd things

We’ve told ourselves for years

They can’t be a collective lie

There’s got to be a destination

This can’t juet be all aimless wandering

Can it?

I wish I could say that I don’t miss you
I’d like to believe it was just the way
that you made me feel that I’m still attached to
I can tell myself that a million times
in a million different ways
but every time it rings a little more hollow
Because if it were true
after all this time and distance
I shouldn’t still care at all
If it were just a passing moment
a stupid fleeting fantasy
then why are you still living in my head?
There’s still so much of my daily life
normal parts of the work we shared
that I can’t do without a flash
of some better-forgotten memory
I have to force myself
not to even start to wonder
when I see or hear something
that I think you’d appreciate
There’s so much that I wish I could share
because I know you’d understand
except you’d NEVER understand now
or even begin to give a damn
because it’d come from me
That sad, pathetic fool
the obsessive little boy
that flew too close to you
so you had to set my wings on fire
to protect what you felt was yours
I know I shouldn’t ever share
just how much I would give up
to have you speak to me again
but the simple little sucker
that I’ve found myself to be
can’t help but wish there was something
I could do to fix it all
To have back my sweetest friend
and source of all my motivation
to be the best that I could be
Because that’s what I miss the most
what you made me strive for
You lifted me up without trying
and dropped me when you felt you had to
and I’d do anything
just to rise with you again
though I know that will never happen
And no matter how hard I try
I can’t convince my stupid heart
to let go of these feelings
Though I try to look ahead
to think that there might still be out there
someone that could actually be
everything I ever wanted
I fear that I found what I was looking for
and yet can never have it
and maybe that’s just meant for me
to be this lost, simpering creature
pining for something he never had
for all eternity

So many words to say

That just won’t pass my lips

I just can’t face it

I just can’t face you

You’ve seen too much of me

The best and worst of what I am

And you clearly don’t want or need

Anything I have to offer

So what is there to try?

What good would it do

To open up and try again?

You’d just turn away again

I’ve hurt myself emough

I can’t put myself through that

It’s for the best to just forget

Even though it seems I can’t

I have to

For both of us