The voice inside my head keeps getting louder
telling me all the reasons it would never work
and how much better off I am
just keeping my mouth shut and head down
(like I’ve failed at every time before)
So why would I do that, knowing it never works?
Simple, fear and paralysis
I don’t want to lose anything ever again
as agonizing as it might be
to be so close and so far away
Having them in my life,
two bright spots in an awful dark sky,
in any capacity
is just too valuable to risk
for the potential of something more
So I sit here, silent, thanking all the lucky stars
to even be allowed to be this close
As sad and pathetic as it seems
I’m happier now than I’ve been in a long time
…and I can’t let that slip aw