I rebuilt my world
with you two at the center
and that was my mistake
I never asked
never considered
the fact that you weren’t willing
the thought that you weren’t ready
the comolete lack of consent
to holding up a broken man
I put too much on you
and now I stand here empty
pieces falling down around me
as I realize you never even knew
where you were
Painstaking reconstruction
ruined by missing forethought
and the only one I have to blame is me
When I look back on my life
I want there to be a reason
a purpose
something left behind
to mark it as a worthy one
I thought the point had shifted
to one centered around you
but I never stopped to question
if that was what you wanted
A stupid selfish moment
a lifeline as I was drowning
that I held onto far too long
Been here before, I’m sad to say
I have a habit of delusion
so don’t mind me as you walk away
I’ve done this to myself befote
it turns out the same way every time
You’d think I’d know better
but it’s not a lesson that ever seems to stick
So I’m sure I’ll rebuild again
and find myself again in ashes
It’s just what I do
and you’re better off paying no mind
I’m just damaged goods