My stomach is in knots

and everything is so surreal

I wasn’t fucking kidding when

I said I wish you wouldn’t skip this

I needed someone here

that could help me understand

because nothing’s right

about this at all

I’m supposed to be pushing her

not mourning her

and holy hell everything is wrong

This was something that I did for her

and I guess I still do for her

but you were supposed to

be here with me

and help me see this through

and you’ve left me here to lose it

with my only company

someone that would never understand

and I told you that I don’t think

I could ever forgive you

for abandoning me

at the second-worst possible time