I’m sitting at the patio we built for you

staring at the garden planted in your memory

trying not to think of how I’ve failed you

while what you loved the most sits silent at my feet

staring as if waiting for me to live

All your chosen children are scattered to the winds

I did my best to try and stay in touch

but my best was never good enough

We both knew that though you never would’ve said so

I’m not sure why I keep trying

to live up to the standards

I think you would’ve expected of me

I just can’t reach those lofty goals

All I can do is wake each day I’m given

and try to do the best I can to carry on

Maybe someday I’ll be someone you could’ve been proud of

but right now that feels a million miles away