You always had the upper hand

The entire time you held the cards

I was just following along

trying to keep up with someone

incapable of slowing down

and wondering what I thought I was doing

trying to find a place

in a world that I was sure

had no room left for me

Come to find out I was right

and I should’ve turned and walked away

long before getting left behind

I can’t make her understand

so why do I want to try?

It’ll only end in pain

I’m already where I’ll end up

She never cared as much as I do

and that’s not something I can change

Why does some part of me

cling to a stupid thought

that if I could only show her

everything would be okay?

Nothing ever works that way

I just can’t fix everything

The mistakes that both sides made

can’t just be magically undone

We have to suffer consequences

it’s just the way it always goes

that it seems like I’m the one

that has to suffer most of all