Don’t worry

the hole you left behind

when you walked away

is still there

In fact

it’s only gotten bigger

in your absence

It’s just not worth filling

when everyone that stands there

always finds a reason

to leave

And every time

they tear away another piece

of who and what I am

and drag it off with them

A little less of me

stays standing day by day

a little less sure

a little less certain

a little less clear

for each time I try to reassemble

I have to patch another crack

or fill another gap

only made by trying

to fill that void

I don’t know if I have it in me

to try again

It’s not always easy

to be proven right

When you share your deepest worries

only to see the one you trusted

make them come true

Was I wrong to say it then?

In the end I saw it coming

despite all her denials

and now it’s been how long?

Feels like an eternity

like she’s a remnant of another life

another world I never lived in

only dreamed of

I knew she would disappear

those words haunting me

alongside her memory

A deeper floor found

beneath rock bottom

a darker void inside my darkest moment

I was right

but I’ll find no satisfaction

only a strong sense of sadness

and loss of what was

and might have been