It’s been a year today

and it somehow feels like each and every one

So much has happened

and so much feels different

for nothing of importance to have changed

Still in the same place

trying to fill the emptiness

Going through the motions

of a world that looks much darker

and a life you left behind too soon

Same old same old

when it’s all just a little less

than the day before

Still not sure what’s next

but I’ll keep trying

to figure it all out

once and for all

like you would’ve wanted

Because that’s all I’ve got these days

these weeks, these months, this year

So much I didn’t understand

I’ve had to learn the hard way

Sure learned fast in these four walls

when what held them up went missing

But we carry on in memory

one more year down the road

and I’m sure with time and patience

the wound gaping in your absence

will start to fade and heal

but it’s only been a year

A lifetime of a year

and I still feel the absence every day