“Are you sure that’s a good idea?”

Nope, let’s do it anyway.

Once more unto the breach

and all that epic bullshit

Full steam ahead

into the sunset

Someday that horizon

will stay still long enough

for us to figure out

what it’s been hiding all these years

Until then, let’s keep chasing

wherever these roads take us

What else could we need

but these four wheels

the open road before us

and a little bit of magic?

Just grab on and let go

first star past sunset

and straight on til forever

I don’t think I can ever forgive you
for making me ashamed
of the way I feel about you
Love should never be shameful
in a world where it’s so hard to find
To be labeled as guilty
for wanting something so simple
as knowing you’re there
through any situation
should be a crime of its own
Especially when you could ask anything
of me and I’d give it
if it’s in my power
The moment I needed
a hand to hold onto
is when you pulled out and away
So maybe you can forgive me
for holding a grudge
but it’s forgiveness I don’t care to seek

Funny how quickly things can change

Just a couple days ago

I would’ve walked through fire for you

and probably never felt a thing

Now I’d probably throw a match and walk away

Guess that’s what happens

when the realization hits

that everything you’re giving up

would never be reciprocated

because that’s too much like love or something

The catalyst was being made

to feel ashamed for caring

No one should be shamed

for daring to give a damn

and trying to show it

No man is an island

as the poet said long before we were born

so to treat me as a lesser person

for trying to rely on

someone that had relied on me

that’s a bridge too far

even for little old me

the simp of a lifetime

Don’t send for me too soon

The weight of the world is on my shoulders

so there’s no room left for you

Don’t worry, I learned your lesson well

and I won’t rely on you at all

In fact, I won’t even contact you

unless spoken too, okay?

Is that what you wanted?

Total fucking silence?

You can have it, gladly

All you had to do was ask

Can’t cross invisible boundaries

if you don’t even look that way

It’s sad that this is what it came to

the end result of all I gave

but such is lie and all its lessons

We don’t always get what we want

…well, at least I don’t

Looks like this time you do

Have your cake and eat it, too

Wish I could shove it in your face

So there I was reaching a hand out

and all you did was stomp on it

A swat in the face with a rolled up newspaper

would’ve been less brutal and unexpected

Drowning in my head

and you throw me an anchor

and all is supposedly well now?

Oh hell no it isn’t

I climbed free of the quicksand

no thanks to you

and I’m standing here now

just aching to make clear

how much you hurt me

when what I needed was a little help

from someone I trusted

If that’s what I get in return

for all that I put out there for you

then maybe it’s time we just walk away

now that I’m actually able to walk

I could pour my poor heart out

and bleed all over these pages

but I don’t think words will move you

back in my direction

So much I want to say

that I’m sure falls on deaf ears

I’m just not at all what you’re looking for

and there’s nothing I can do

So much potential connection

severed by anxious ignorance

thrown away in happenstance

and here I am still panicking

I can’t catch my breath at all

or gather wits about me

too lost in mourning the sacrifice

of everything I ever wanted

Should’ve seen this coming

(I’m pretty sure I did)

as I pick myself up off this floor

just to watch you walk away

I knew you were the stronger one

You never really needed me

but God do I need you right now

But needing doesn’t make it so

and what’s in it for you?

I guess all that’s left for me

is to find a way to let it go

I can’t bear to see the end

Now that you’ve seen the best and worst of me

I wish more than ever that I could read minds

so I’d have some idea how this will all turn out

Because right now I miss you more than ever

but I know we need a little more distance

and I don’t want to make approach too soon

but it does no good to wait too long

and each moment that passes is a moment too long

I’m so in over my head right now

that I can’t find the surface

and the worst part is you’re probably fine

Your life rolls on without me just the same

while I’m in agony waiting for the chance

to finally see your smiling face again

a chance that I’m not sure will ever come again

It gets harder and harder to keep my head up each and every waking moment
knowing where I am right now and what needs to be done
to push away the darkest cloud still chasing me around
the one I’m pretty sure I put there all by my stupid self
Maybe I should hide away and let the storm just come and pass
it’s the easiest solution, wouldn’t have to lift a finger
but it’d also mean never getting to see that silver lining
It would end in sacrifice, it would end in pain
No, better to pick and choose the timing to try and pierce the outer edge
find my way into the heart and expose the light inside
I’m the one that brought the thunder. I’m the one to calm it
and I’m the one that’s risking getting fried or drowned inside it
but I’m the one that made mistakes in the choices that led us here
so I’m the one that should be risking everything to fix it
So here I go to chase the storm I put above my head

Put on the plastic smile

and keep up the charade

Don’t let them know what’s really going on

Inside I’m falling apart again

haven’t seen that smile in days

or heard a word from her side at all

She was someone I could count on

until I opened my mouth again

and shoved my foot so deep I still can’t get it out

So I’m paying for my sins now

trying to find the altar

to prostrate myself upon to bring her back

Lost without direction

but I can’t let them see me sweat

though I don’t know where I’m going

too much time spent just following her

Give me something to hold onto

shine a light my way

and let me find the way home

before it’s too late and I’m stuck out here alone

The more I think about it

the more anger seeps in

Such a cold and petty phrase

to throw it all away

Didn’t think you had it in you

to shut me down so hard, so well

Of course I learned to rely on you

you reached out, you were there

You dragged me out of hell

and along on your merry way

I got to live again through you

but now I guess that’s grown too much

for someone such as you

You don’t want hurt feelings?

We’re a little late for that

Hurt feelings come with canceled plans

and shades of being cast aside

But hey, it’s only me that’s hurt

You get your clean conscience

and I get to wallow in

all that I thought you’d save me from

Fuck it, I think I’m done