Tag: emotions

Before the Stillness

scottneelan

Under the early morning sky
A thousand questions running through my head
keeping me from slumber
I see her
All the possibilities spread out before me
An endless net of uncertainty
At the center only me
Paralyzed by what could be
Dooming myself by default
Analyzing every twist and turn
Thinking things to death
We play the same game
As far as I can tell
But if I’ve misread the signals
If I’m shooting in the dark again…
Would that hurt more than the rejection?
Get a grip
Time to wrap my insecurities
In a blanket
A mercy killing
For what is life without risk?
Without chance?
Would a possible fleeting pain be worse
Than a sure goodbye?
…likely no.
Sure as the moonlight slips in the window
I must make a move
Before the stillness erases my path

I know EXACTLY where this one came from, and I’m not tellin’. Suffice to say it wouldn’t let me sleep tonight ’til it forced it’s way out of me.

At The End of The World

scottneelan

It was just one night
at the end of the world
You showed me your soul
such beauty and grace
flooded in mystery
a glint of steel
softness and silence
I tried to reach out
missed the signs
look, but not touch
and I was found lacking
(in what, I’ll never know)
a fleeting glimpse
stripped of nirvana
cast out of eden
you pulled away
into the night
taking all color
all light, all life
into oblivion with you
alone as the sky falls
alone as the mountains fall
it was just one night
at the end of the world
you took my breath away
as the stars faded
then walked away
leaving me empty
awaiting the end…

I have no idea where this came from, exactly. I had two of the lines come to me separately over the last day or so, then combine in my head and force their way out as this. Sorry for not keeping this place updated, for those of you who actually pay attention. It’s been a one heck of a ride lately. Hopefully I can find some time to devote to this place in the near future.

“Life Led in Darkness”

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All this time and effort
trying to shake the feeling
what is, was, shall never be
a discordant symphony
ringing in my ears
visions of you
between the twilight
still waiting, wondering
something sudden
something secret
a hidden world
straining so hard
to fill the void
what lies behind
what waits ahead
emotions run deep
the harsh truth
burning away the nostalgia
shining light
down upon the obscure
I cannot break free
no path is clear
no road ahead
the ruins of days
from the rubble may I rise
the flames give of life
a new beginning
the shadows cast aside
a seed of hope
deep within the darkness
may it grow
to spread anew
the breath of hope
so that I might find tomorrow
a blessing, not a curse