Tag: life

Make Me Fall

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You say you’re crazy
well, I’m a little crazy too
call yourself selfish
I’ll play the give and take with you
you think you know me
well you don’t know me well enough
say I’m too easy
but I like my life a little rough

(CHORUS)
you say love is torture
and maybe you’re right
I say its time to find out
let’s start something tonight
something that could last forever
something that’s real and true
give me everything you’ve got babe
make me fall in love with you

tell me the truth now
you can’t hide behind the lies
your love can’t hurt me
you’ll never cut me down to size
trust me when I say, baby
I’ve read you like an open book
a modern classic
your words are worth a second look

(CHORUS)

just try and stop me
leave me broken if you can
I think you’ll find out
just how strong I really am
and when the smoke clears
I’ll still be standing, wait and see
you’ll find forever
when you give yourself to me

(CHORUS x2)

Well holy crap, I think I just wrote myself three verses of a song lyric. Thank you, “Blank Space” by Taylor Swift, for providing about half the inspiration for this, and thank you, source I probably shouldn’t name, for providing the other 50% or so. Now I just need a chorus and a title if I want it to be a real song, but it works perfectly well on its own as a poem IMO, so I’m posting it…

Later Edit: Got my chorus and my title. Love love love this. I see it with a folk/R&B, Ed Sheeran-ish style.

Another

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Another night
another fantasy
another dream of what may never be
another stop along the road
another mile down the path of least resistance
another breath
another stony silence
another day of living without life
another broken promise
another failure to see the world turning
another attempt to stem the tides
another moment slipping between fingers
another defeat for lack of even trying
another sigh
another shaking head

…and still I cannot change

Just found this in my drafts. No clue what it was inspired by, and not sure why I never published it before.

Until You

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You drop into my boring life
A splash of color
a ray of light
you give me something
I didn’t know I needed
you drag me places
I’d never dream of going
you fill a hole
I didn’t even know was there
and just as quick you’re gone
a flicker, a flutter
and back to the empty spaces
back to the monochrome
back to the boring life
and to the something missing I never knew I needed
…until you.

Looks like this weekend is gonna be a goldmine for me creatively. Personally/emotionally, not so much, but such is life, I suppose. This one is kind of a follow-up to the last one, as time marches on and more things happen. Again, I don’t share specifics on here too often, so I won’t say what’s going on exactly. Just consider these snapshots in time as to how I’m feeling as things unfold (or, more accurately, don’t unfold)

Draw Me In

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You intrigue me
Draw me in
Pull me in a new direction
Upward, onward
Into your orbit
The light in your eyes
A golden glow, reflected
The warmth of your smile
Am endless wonder
You speak to me
Wisdom wrapped in riddles
Without words, without sound
Tempting, teasing
With the promise of discovery
Ever I explore
Never lost
Never left behind
Following the path
Set down by your soul

I can’t really say where this one came from. And I don’t mean that in a secretive way. This one just popped into my head in pieces while reading email this morning. Forced its way out of me, it did.

Might’ve

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Here I am
Wondering what might’ve been
If I had just
Done it right
At the right time
The right place
The right way
How would it be
To be holding you
In my arms right now
To be sleeping next to you
To wake up to you
To savor every moment
Spent with you
If only…
If only I had taken the chance
If only I knew then
If only I’d acted way back then
When it might’ve mattered

Here’s a relatively new piece, written while feeling dangerously nostalgic and somewhat melancholy. It really could be about any number of people/events in my life, which is rare. Usually the things like this one are much more specific.

Much later edit: gotta call BS on myself here from the future. I know EXACTLY who this is about, I just didn’t want her to know it was about her at the time. I dunno if she reads this or not, or if she’d guess this was about her, so…

Before the Stillness

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Under the early morning sky
A thousand questions running through my head
keeping me from slumber
I see her
All the possibilities spread out before me
An endless net of uncertainty
At the center only me
Paralyzed by what could be
Dooming myself by default
Analyzing every twist and turn
Thinking things to death
We play the same game
As far as I can tell
But if I’ve misread the signals
If I’m shooting in the dark again…
Would that hurt more than the rejection?
Get a grip
Time to wrap my insecurities
In a blanket
A mercy killing
For what is life without risk?
Without chance?
Would a possible fleeting pain be worse
Than a sure goodbye?
…likely no.
Sure as the moonlight slips in the window
I must make a move
Before the stillness erases my path

I know EXACTLY where this one came from, and I’m not tellin’. Suffice to say it wouldn’t let me sleep tonight ’til it forced it’s way out of me.

“Life Led in Darkness”

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All this time and effort
trying to shake the feeling
what is, was, shall never be
a discordant symphony
ringing in my ears
visions of you
between the twilight
still waiting, wondering
something sudden
something secret
a hidden world
straining so hard
to fill the void
what lies behind
what waits ahead
emotions run deep
the harsh truth
burning away the nostalgia
shining light
down upon the obscure
I cannot break free
no path is clear
no road ahead
the ruins of days
from the rubble may I rise
the flames give of life
a new beginning
the shadows cast aside
a seed of hope
deep within the darkness
may it grow
to spread anew
the breath of hope
so that I might find tomorrow
a blessing, not a curse