You’ll probably never know
just how hard it is for me
to act like you’re not there
when for so long
my first and last thought was of you
Even without the obsession
even with tempered desire
even knowing we’ll never be
what we once were
to just keep my mouth shut
and look away
takes every bit of willpower I have
I still hold some hope
that a little time
and a little distance
might heal all wounds
like they always say
and maybe we can be
something approaching cordial
but here and now
I just have to keep up the struggle
and focus on keeping you
out of focus