All these scars and broken hearts

That’s what comes of being open

So I think I’ll lock myself up tight

It’s so hard not to end up caring

More deeply than I guess I should

But that’s a battle I must win

To lose would only end in pain

Seal up tight against the wind

Let no one else find shelter here

Every time I open up

I lose another piece of me

There’s so little left inside

It may not be worth fighting for

But I can’t fall apart just yet

So I’ll hide it all away

And keep what’s left alone and safe

It still bothers me

More than it should

That I wasn’t worth the time

To deal with directly

I thought the world of her

Would’ve given anything

And the reward I got

For all my caring

Was a cold shoulder

Solid stone silence

She went through the motions

To make me feel wanted

Then turned around

And walked away

Without a word

Without a sound

How someone can

Just give up completely

So coolly and quietly

I’ll never know

But I do know my worth

And she owed me more

Than a lack of goodbye

Fall into me

Make two into one

And let the world come

Together

We could shape this

With our own hands

Build shelter

Against the tides

Find something

To carry us

You’re out there

Somewhere

And I’m here

Lost but seeking

Let us find it

That place

Where we can stand

I wish I knew how to let go

Of everything that I can’t change

That weighs so heavy on my mind

All the personal affronts

That mean so little in the end

The struggles and the wasted time

The caring and the wondering

Concerns and aspirations

That all amount to nothing

If only I had more control

Over my own destiny

But I can only go so far

And do so much to shape my world

To focus on the here and now

Must be such a precious gift

One I doubt I’ll ever have

All I can do is try

Someone that can hate someone
just for loving them
wasn’t worth the love in the first place

It’s funny where some draw the line

How much is too much?

And how far is too far?

Where’s the line in the sand

And how quickly can it be redrawn

When suddenly you need them

As much as they’ve relied on you?

Things are seldom made clear

The rules are never hard and fast

Even though they should be

And far too often I find myself

Trying to rely on someone

To treat me as I treated thsn

When they were never willing to

Maybe I just have to learn

How to lean on someone

That will actually help hold me up

Rather than let me fall

To be so afraid of something real

Real emotion, real connections

I don’t think I could ever understand

Those feelings, those connections

That feeling of intimacy

Is what makes this world bearable

And though I get not being able

To be connected all the time

I can’t wrap my head around

A life led completely alone

When we are all humanity

And we all want the same things

Why have we made this a place

Where we hurt each other for them?

We have built a world of plenty

And placed it as the pinnacle

At the end of a road of suffering

That we never need to walk

If only we could see that there

Is enough of everything

That your share need not be carved

Out of someone else’s

Ride off into the sunset
you got yours, after all
except that you have nothing
but empty promises
filling your head with visions
A little further down
karma waits impatiently
falling on you viciously
the moment you cross that threshold
May you find your empty-handedness
a burden on your heart
one fine day
when you come up short
thinking of what might have been
had you had a conscience
back when it might’ve mattered

The empress is naked again

An actress hiding from emotion

But I saw right through

I saw the truth beneath

The lies you surround yourself with

Keep it secret

Keep it safe

Keep it far away from you

No feeling, no passion

Just protection from the big, bad world

Hide beneath your mother’s skirt

Like the lost little girl you try not to be

But that’s what you fall back on

Because that’s what you know

That’s what you are

Looking for something or someone

To save you from the boredom

Of the life you refuse to live

But unwilling or unable

To fight your own way out

You used my helping hand

To rip my own heart out

So you can stay there in your bubble

I gave my last damn

When you stomped all over me again

So sorry that you refuse to see

I can’t make you live

Only you can se yourself free

And yet you refuse to open your eyes

You must like your boring world

More than you’d care to admit

So stay there